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Another year around the sun - February 7th is my 45th birthday! I have to say that my 40’s has been quite the ride - it’s a time where I have done a lot of growing, maturing, feeling more and more comfortable with myself and seeing things differently. I’ve been feeling quite nostalgic and reflective and want to share some things that I have learned to appreciate and make me happy (and a few things about me you didn’t know).
1. Having a good office chair May sound a bit old lady-ish but I as I’ve gotten older I’ve noticed that the more I sit the more I need a better chair to support me. I invested in a used Aeron chair last year. I normally would’ve been sick spending several hundred dollars on an office chair but not anymore! My back and butt are thanking me for it daily. I am so happy I bought it.
2. Spending time in nature: I love going outside – always have. I didn’t realize it until the last few years how being outdoors really energizes me. I love going on hikes and walks, working out outside and hitting the beach. It is essential for my mental state and soul and being near water is the best! I have always lived near water on a coast.
3. 80’s and 90’s jams: Puts me back in my younger years instantly and in a great mood
4. Fresh, clean sheets: YAAASSS! Nothing like getting into a clean bed
5. A sweaty night out dancing hard: always a good time. I LOVE to dance
6. Sharing my knowledge and helping others: I love to share and be of help in any way I can
7. Traveling and exploring new places and things: can’t get enough
8. Spirituality and personal growth: always working on being a better person in and out
9. Good health: especially since I fractured my leg I really appreciate this now
10. Cute animal videos – who doesn’t love these?
11. Sunshine: I live in Cali and it’s a huge part of life here. I’ve become addicted to sunshine I think.
12. Plants: duh
13. Making art, being creative: I love exploring and developing my abilities
14. Patterns and illustration: OBSESSED!
15. Social Media: My Pinterest and Instagram addiction - I love eye candy!
16. Working late at night in the “flow”: ahhh sooo good getting lost in your work
17. The ability to bindge watch: who doesn’t love binge watching?
18. Hot yoga: my new favorite workout. Can’t wait to get back once my fractured leg heals
19. Girl time: the BEST!
20. Alone time: this has become more important as I get older
21. Feeling more and more confident and in control: also something that happens as you get older
22. Family and family time: I lost both parents in the last few years and family time is essential
23. Being more comfortable with change: I feel good about this
24. Biking on the beach trail: the breeze in your face is exhilarating!
25. Learning new skills: love notching up my game
26. Cooking (not baking – no good at it)
27. Chocolate – need I say more?
28. Farmer’s markets: Love seeing all the fresh fruits and veggies I can bring home with me
29. Sleeping in: I have a new schedule lately and sleep is a new priority
30. Driving stick: It feels like I’m in control of the car but it’s not fun in traffic though. I drove a 5 speed pick-up truck for 10 years in my 20’s
31. A good kickboxing class: as a former aerobic instructor from the 90’s I appreciate a challenging class from a really good instructor
32. Beach vacations (or any vacation)
33. Laughing and hanging out with my guy: he’s such a goofball and makes me laugh a lot
34. Discovering yummy, new gluten free foods (I’ve been celiac since 2006 - before gluten free was cool)
35. Karaoke: those private rooms are so much fun
36. 80’s cartoons from my childhood: like Jem, Smurfs and Muppet Babies
37. Synchronicities: love it when it happens!
38. Checking things off my to do list and/or goal list
39. Anthropologie: I call it my “Design Church”. I go just for inspiration and to just exhale
40. Cheesy 80’s movies like Xanadu and Revenge of the Nerds: I’ll watch them if they are on cable.
41. Finding out something I am purchasing at the register is actually on sale (score!)
42. Random acts of kindness
43. Mentos commercials make me laugh
44. Nice hotel rooms with good design, robes and big, comfy beds makes me never want to leave
45. Freedom (all kinds)
There are so many more too. I hope you can relate to these (and I am not a big weirdo). I am looking forward to this new year and hope that it is very different than past years - in the best ways ever!
2019 is here! We made it. It was a year of ups and downs for me - some grief and healing from the loss of my mom in 2018 and the sale of my childhood home in the spring, lots of self care and quiet time, a rejuvenating trip to Miami and Orlando and a reemergence of energy and passion to paint and create. I created some new work I am very proud of and opened my online store - something I’ve wanted to do for some time. I think it ended strong and I am riding the momentum I created in the last part of the year into 2019.
This year for me is about “expansion” - expanding on my ideas, expanding my portfolio with new, exciting work, expanding my career to pursue my dreams wholeheartedly, expanding my life, my mind, my confidence, my strength, my view of the world through more travel and inner joy. It’s about living my best life this year and not looking back. I feel that it is my time to focus on my happiness and all the things I have been itching to do and see. Stay tuned. I think this year is going to be fire!
This is me right now in my new temporary life hobbling around with a fractured fibula from a freak roller skating accident. It’s day 4 and ya know it’s getting easier. I had great news from the orthopedic surgeon today and it looks like there’s no ligament damage and there’s no surgery necessary. I’m so relieved. I will be out of the boot in 3 weeks and almost like new in 6.
I only had one breakdown and overall been in good spirits. I am chronically clumsy (people who know me are shaking their heads yes now) and have a high threshold for pain (not necessarily something to be proud of). I made it to 44 years and never broke a bone until now (does a dislocated pinky finger that healed crooked count?).
This experience has made me feel incredibly grateful for the people who have been there for me, that I work from home and can rest easier and that it wasn’t as bad as it could’ve been. I’m also learning patience, doing more self care and slowing down. I was working late nights and had a couple of all-nighters prior to this getting my online shop ready. I felt a bit rushed and things seemed a bit chaotic. Looks like this happened for a reason and I’m totally ok with it.
Been spending a lot of time here lately and really enjoying it for the first time in a long time.
It’s been quite a journey in the last few years - a disappointing tradeshow, the loss of my elderly mother (both parents actually) and the sale of my childhood home all felt like my world was upside down. When would I feel motivated, inspired and excited about life and work again?
I emerged from this funk over time and felt ready to empower myself to do the work to finally feel a sense of fulfillment and inner joy. I began experimenting with art supplies, taking online art classes, seeking guidance from friends and coaches and developing work I could be proud of.
I turned a corner and through creating I have started feeling the life come back into me. I could see things clearly and am excited to sit at this desk and paint daily.
This new normal is a great place to be and makes me look forward to seeing what I can do from here. I highly recommend spending time creating for the fun of it. It works wonders.
***Keep an eye out here for announcements in the upcoming days. I can't wait to show you what I've been working on and will have exciting items for sale for the holidays! xo
I'm so happy to announce that I did my very first podcast! Mallory of Badass Creatives and I chat about branding, some mistakes I have learned from in my creative journey, how I got into the world of Art Licensing and what I pretty much do everyday. We have a candid and honest talk that I think you will enjoy! I highly recommend adding Badass Creatives to our list of podcasts for all things creative - business discussions, great interviews and inspiration, resources and more. Thanks so much for having me on the show! I'm honored to be considered a "badass". Go here and check it out!
2017 for me was the year of loss, love and lessons. I also experienced a bit of personal growth from my experiences. I started out the year like a BOSS, attending a fun, fruitful conference where I joyfully networked, received some new opportunities and reunited with old friends. The upcoming months were filled with great coaching clients to work with, travel, new friends who I love, some exciting art licensing opportunities and a class reunion. Then the second half of the year started to slow down and came to a screeching HALT!
My 83 year old mother passed away!
It was devastating. She had been slowing down but we weren't prepared for how quick her decline was. She was surrounded by friends and family as we hospiced her at home in New England. I felt honored to be there by her side in her last days with my loving and supportive family. My friend perfectly describes losing your mom as the "earthquake of your life". It is disorienting, confusing and painful. My dad had passed away a few years prior and having no parents was something I just never could've imagined - let alone at 43. It hit me - I wasn't alone. I realized that many people are having babies in their 40's now. My mom had me at 40 in the 70's when it was completely unheard of. Now it's the norm. I learned first-hand that life is short, precious and that we must cherish our loved ones and every moment we have with them creating sweet memories.
I realized at this time it is important to be present to my feelings and welcome every emotion and everyone who reached out. I wasn't interested in working hard or anything that resembled it. I wanted to retreat and found warmth and comfort in receiving love from friends and family. This holiday season would be different for sure and as it approached I began to feel the absence of my parents. The waves of sentimental feelings that the holiday bring made me deeply appreciate and feel their love. I decided to spend that time with family in another state and go on a bit of a road-trip adventure. The adventure was just what I needed and then...
My website was hijacked!
UGH. I was away from home in the middle of my trip and there wasn't much I could do. I had potential business and some announcements coming out and knew people would be looking at my site in the next week or two. The site was riddled with malware. The home page had Asian language in which the Google translator said I was selling wheelchairs and electronics. UGH. I decided to toss up my hands and enjoy my vacation. Being present and enjoying the time with my family was more important and geez with all I had been through this wasn't the end of the world. I normally would've been a Defcon 5 situation but I weighed out the good and bad and decided that I would not let this ruin my vacation. I clearly grew from my experiences and realized it will get fixed.
So here we are with a new site and a new blog. I considered the website hacking a blessing. I never would've made a new site in a week's time. My old blog content needs to be cleaned of malware and it can be restored. That's next for me to tackle. I now have a new, fresh start in this new year. Being present, going with the flow and learning the lessons is the new normal for me. My mom is with me always and I am sure she's proud of my growth.